Wandering Thoughts: Balancing Overwhelming Responsibilities and Personal Reflections
My mind is wandering. I don't have a topic for what to write. I checked HiveStats to see some posts. I found three and commented. One is about a weekly review of the current trend in cryptocurrency. The second is about a new token claiming to be the "MicroStrategy of LEO." The last one is about China's changing stance on cryptocurrency. The blogger thinks this move could significantly affect the industry and international sentiment.
The reason why it is difficult for me to focus on writing is due to overwhelming responsibilities. This may sound like an excuse, but this is my reality. It is good that Hive is here, which serves like therapy to me. At least I could talk to myself by expressing my thoughts.
Imagine taking a Ph.D. program at my age. I don't see a need for it. It's more like pleasing your seniors and, for institutional future purposes, if my mind would change, taking the highest executive position. The last thing I need is additional stress and pressure, and adding up another layer of responsibility would be contrary to that aspiration.
Collating and preparing documents for the BOT meeting and the strategic planning of supporting BOT are also not easy. It's good that the BIR, the Land Bank, and the PEAC stories had their closure two weeks ago. That's a great relief. Now that the Christmas season is approaching and the year is about to end, employees are expecting the remaining 13-month pay, bonuses, and gifts. Knowing the financial status of the school, it is really a miracle that the institution survived for so many years.
There is one tension I have in mind. I wonder why employees always think and talk about their benefits, yet when it comes to simple responsibilities like turning off the lights and arriving in the office on time, they seem to take these things for granted. Though I am an employee myself, it appears that in the eyes of the employees, it is as if I am their employer and my office is the one receiving all the complaints. Somehow, it hurts because our team is doing our best to be of service, but we feel that our hard work isn't appreciated both by those under us and those above us.
I know that the proper forum for all these sentiments is during our administrative officers' meeting and not here. That's the "blessing" of anonymity. Somehow, you could express your struggles, hoping to figure out what's wrong and find a solution in the end.
Most of the struggles I am mentioning are HR-related. This was not part of the agreement when I took on this responsibility in the business office. There is this kind of culture in our institution that those who are active doing their tasks are the ones receiving more responsibilities.
Not only human resource management, the oversight of technical vocational education and training is also under my supervision, and we have four: welding, culinary, automotive, and carpentry. Only one of them is active but is currently struggling due to some unknown changes in the funding protocol. We are referred to the provincial director, to the office of the mayor, and finally both to Congress and the Senate. Our staff has been advised to better connect to someone in the legislative branch of the government for us to receive the scholarship funds.
Our culinary already received the Certificate of Registration from the government, but the program failed to launch due to a lack of funding. In the case of carpentry, there are tools that we need to purchase to comply with TESDA's minimum requirement. Lastly, in the case of automotive, we are still waiting for the release of COR.
I am not sure how long I can bear this situation. One good thing that happened for the past two weeks is the webinar we attended about HR. This very important department has been taken for granted for so long, and that explains our current situation. I am thinking of bringing this issue to the attention of administrators in one of our meetings, hoping that the culture of our school will change to an empowering one.
Grace and peace!!!
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Don't worry, your problem is not unique and you are not alone. There are a lot of inefficiencies in this world, so many things needed to be done, but so little resources.
Can the PhD be put on hold so you can focus on the other important tasks?
Choose your battles and define limitations and scope of your responsibilities. A win is a win, no matter how small. The rest are just Works-in-Progress (it might take time though due to diff circumstances). More than just accomplishing tasks, we should think more about sustainability. Hence, I believe setting the right culture is best, but it won't be quick.
The PhD program happens twice a year. We are already done with 8 subjects, but I completed only one research paper. I want to withdraw but I worry that this might discourage the program director for he raised a scholarship to support my studies.
Thanks for taking the time to read my post.
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Somebody else might want and need the scholarship more. I think you need to choose, else everything will end up mediocre, both your research and your work.
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