My unsuccessful date: sadness

Greetings bosses and welcome to my post.

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Going on dates is something that really keeps a relationship going well but what if your partner is a type that disappoints? What if they don't want to go out with you for unknown reasons? What if they make you insecure every single time?

Well, here's the story of my unsuccessful date

Last week, I and my girlfriend planned on a date after I come back from imo state. I was happy because we have been dating for a year now but we have not gone for any date. We just go out at times and relax but not going for a date. After the plans, I had to leave imo state last Sunday down to abia state because I had planned something with my "girlfriend" not knowing she had her own plans.

When making the plans, I decided to call one of her collegue and ask him about a place to chill out in umuahia and he told me but mistakenly told me that "I am second." I didn't know what that meant but I decided to pay little or no mind to it. After the plans was set and ready to be acted upon, she told me that she was going for a class swimming which I was surprised to hear. I didn't want to be selfish so I allowed her to go, and j reminded her to remember that we had a date that same day which she said she knows and will make it.

I called her again when she was at the pool to remind her and she said she remembers. I refused to call her and I was becoming very much restless so I decided to take myself out on that Sunday evening so I could chill out and think about things.

I was at the hotel where I went to chill out untill night fall but she still didn't call and I refused to call. I took a bottle of beer but due to the restlessness, I bought sachets of Derok rum which I drank at a go so that I could calm down.

At last, I decided to call her to know what's up with her but still to no avail. I called countlessly but she didn't pickup or responded. Where I got made was when I called her and it said that she was on another call. when I heard that, my mind went straight back to when her collegue told me that I was second and as such, I just sent her a breakup message.

Even after the message, I continued calling her but still, nothing. I relaxed and was very much heartbroken but I tried to calm myself down and look for measures to calm down but it didn't work. later that night I had to call someone to give me her friends phone number which they did and when I called her friend, her friend told me that my girlfriend's phone got missing after the swimming which ended by 7pm. I didn't know what to do again, all I asked for was the location of the hotel and they gave it to me. When I called again to start coming, they told me that my girlfriend broke down due to the message I sent her and I was very annoyed. Reason was because we had plans but she chose her swimming over me. After everything that night, I decided to apologise so that she calms down but to be honest, I have not been myself ever since that Sunday till now.

My level of insecurity is very high around her and I am just not into her again. I know she has another guy in her life but I don't have enough prove to confront her. At this stage I don't know what to do but I think writing this post made me feel better because I could open up to someone finally. I'm actually introverted in some way and I don't really like communicating that's why I decided to post it here.

I don't hope she changes or something but I just want to be alone for sometime.

Thank you for reading, I hope to see you next time.