9/24/24

I'm in a very meh mood today. I feel like I'm losing an uphill battle in life lately but, I guess I gotta shut up and work for now. I wish progress was faster. I wish a lot of things everyday. But I guess I just have to do rather than JUST wish.

I have numerous uncertainties and stresses and thoughts that instead of just being and feeling unwell, I will just work. I will probably work a ton today. My son is at his grandma's and so I have plenty of time on my hands. Life could be worse. Much much worse. Just have to thank God for everything. I will walk the dog and just keep on living.

There's a certain point where my brain annoys me so much that I just work. Work may be not ALWAYS fun but, it's way better than just thinking and worrying. Maybe I'll work my way into a better life someday. Just have to practice patience. Sometimes time is not on my side but just need to control what I can control.

The walk will be good. I like to look around at the houses. It gives me motivation. Maybe I won't be stuck here forever. Hive on folks.