My sleep have been laid on the altar of sacrifice for my kids

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Raising my kids have taken away my sleep from me. But checking it properly I know that it worth the sacrifice. It is said that nothing good comes for nothing, that is true, because for one to get something that is special, you also need to sacrifice something.

While growing up I never thought of my mother as a great woman. I just saw her as per the way I see other women. Maybe it is because I didn't grow up with her. I was taking away from her at a very tender age. So, all my life I lived it with others and I will be allowed to see my mother once in two or three years. So, you see why I said that I don't really have any bound with my mum. But not until I got married, gave birth to my first child that I started respecting my sweet mother. Mothers really need to be applauded for just being mothers. Even though if she could not afford a good life for her kids. Just by being their mother, she deserve an award.

Friends and brethren, my sleepless nights started from when I had my first child. I have never had that experience of being with a little child. That was my first time. So, it was a period of learning to be a mother. My husband will be asleep but I will wake up every one or two hours to check on the baby. Sometimes it might be the cry of the baby that will wake me up. I will wake up, breast feed the child, sleep again for another one hour, wake up, change the baby. When the child is sick is normally worse. I don't even sleep at all.

It grew worse when I had my second pregnancy. From the very moment I took in, I started hiving issues. No night sleep because the pregnancy was for two. And according to the doctor, there was no enough space for the twins to stay very well. Then after delivery. Everyone will be sleeping in my house, but I will always sleep little and wake up to nurse the twins. It continued till all my children grow up. Even when the have passed the age of breast shocking, I still go round almost every night to watch them sleep well. Some I will feel as if they have rolled away from their mosquito net, when I enter their rooms, it will just be as I have thought.

HOW DID I COME OUT OF IT?
Sincerely speaking, I still struggle to sleep up till now. Though it has improved. But even when I don't have any child crying at night and seeking for attention, my body system is already used to waking up at night to stay for some hours before going back to sleep. The only advantage I have there is that it has helped me to grow in my prayer life. I learnt how to pray in the night when I can't sleep and every one is asleep. I turn to God and start talking to Him who never sleeps nor slumber.

Any lesson from my story?
Nothing much to stay. I have no regrets for giving up sleep for my kids. Infact, if it is possible to come back to this life, I will still love to be a mother and I will give up anything for my kids.
God bless 🙏 all the Naija people in this hive Naija community.

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