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The installation of emotions to the human body has been a great cause of disaster and at the same time, it is a great thing that has ever happened to us. Disaster in the sense that - relying on emotions for risky decisions can be very brutal. Imagine a world without emotions. Calm and robotic.

There is always one thing in life ba makes people sad. If not a past or a occuring event, the it is other people. Seems like life itself don't want us to be happy because if it does, then everything would be smooth sailing. But no. It is not. Now that I have thought of it, I think life is actually against us from the start, and it wants us to prove by hard work that we are worth something. Before conception, pushups was done by our dad. We race to the Ovum afterwards while facing many deadly obstacles. At last, we get there but still have to work hard to enter into it. After struggling to go in, we still struggled to go out. Pains as a result of the maternal pelvic muscles exacting pressure of the vault of our heads. All these processes and knowing too well that life did not want us at first, is enough to make a person sad constantly but no, we are not. We try to maintain our cool, be happy, and make friends with people. Probably people we ran the race with at first (conception).

During the growth and development process, many things happens. We get things running in our favor until life hits again. Thinking it is a one time fall, we give it another try only to be stuck again and this time, by an even greater force. Some times the hit is not actually coming from life persé but from the people that we trust the most. The ones that we can kill for.

Plans fail and have to be changed constantly. Goals are not gotten due to the dynamic nature of the plans, or some times, they take longer than expected to come.

The government hits. Instead of solving real time problems for the citizens, they go around doing irrelevant things that may not even add to the quality of betterment of life.

Sometimes, life does not hit us directly but indirectly, through our loved ones. Break ups, death of a loved one, being abandoned, domestic violence and many more. It is quite disappointing to see that the person you are looking up to, is the one that is holding the knife that stabbed you. Some loved one explore the kindness and love we have for them, and tend to manipulate us because we are blindly in love with them.

There are many things that happens in life that may rob a person of their happiness, but then, through the thick and thin, we will always, I mean always put a smile on our face. That's a gift.

Many things has happened in my life. I would not want to start listing them here but it's been quite a lot. Ranging from failed plans to failed love, I have pulled through but have never been the same.

Being a child who loves the light, I have grown to embrace the comfort in which darkness has to offer. and I have seen that it is really a peaceful one.

Heart became colder as the days and months passed by. The people I love and look up to became the ones that are constantly manipulating me. gradually, I began to lost touch from reality as i find joy in solitude. The darkness which I was once scared of, became my best friend and it's comfort was none to be compared with anything. I began to see people like wolves in sheep clothing who will never lose an opportunity to rip you off of your little possessions and achievements and take all the credits for themselves.

Though not depressing, but it felt better to be alone. Well, not until I saw how it is affecting my relationships with other people who actually cared.

During this time, it is not you the victim who can keep this in check. well, except you have extreme sense of self control and self awareness and you have not actually found the real peace that comes from solitary.
The friends you keep, your family and people who really care about you are the ones to help you keep this in check.

Before things get out of hand, there are certain things to look out for in every thing you do. This however is paying attention to small details. Not necessarily being an overthinker, but being someone who can see through to understand the meaning of every attitude portrayed by another person. You should be able to properly manage any form of crisis without flinching. We should be able to not get too attached t anyone. Everyone is just a lesson to learn from. get the lessons they have to teach while keeping these teachers. not for the purpose of anything, just for keeping sake. They will come in handy one day.

Thank you for reading 😊

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