MAKING FRIENDS, THE MOST DIFFICULT THING TO DO.

Being social is one of the most important quality we need to have as humans.

Friends are like a double edged sword,they can elevate you and also, they can cause your downfall, all depending on your mentality and how you manage them.

Me and my coursemates.

My mom always tell me that your friends are the ones who will make you the person you will become tomorrow and that is why it is important to choose a good click of friends. I thought she was just saying another African parent proverb but I am begining to understand what she meant by those words.

Though not a social person and I love doing things myself because I believe that nobody can do it better like I do, I have come to understand that in life, you can not do everything on your own and you will definitely need direct or indirect help from people.

HOW I MAKE FRIENDS
If there is any word other than impossible, that's the word I will use.

I can be social online, talk, laugh and maybe play a lot but offline? I am worst than an introvert who gets annoyed by any little thing a person does to me.

I hope that answered the question of making friends.

My mom do give me trailer loads of advice and I too advice myself but when I finish advising myself, I continue becoming the over serious person who hates talking to anybody and just wants to mind their business.

Its like I am divided into two alter ego. One takes over when I'm online, when I'm in school, when I'm working in the hospital, or when i need to be free with children. while the last alter ego, Elnwothini, is the brain behind every single thing and is the one that inhibits me from making friends.

I know the explanation is weird but I hope you understand my point.

Having these two alter ego, I prefer to talk to them than to talk to a person.
When I have a problem, I relay to Elnwothini and he finds solution. Yes, you're not wrong, I am Elnwothini. I just named my alter ego Elnwothini

DO I PREFER MANY FRIENDS?
I prefer no friends.

Though my mom is always against this but I think I am better off alone. Well,not until I feel sick few days ago and my neighbors had to take care of me. Cared for me and behaved like my siblings. I have not received such care from an outsider before because I don't allow it but I couldn't stop this one because i was really sick.

Seeing how I was cared for, my ego was hurt because I felt like I can not do anything for my self but at the same time, I felt a sense of love and kindness.

WHY I PREFER NO FRIENDS?

I see friends as draw backs.
From my experience with friends, when you are at your peak, they will love to bring you low. They always want you to "beg" them. They want a situation where they will give you the garbage from there table while you accept with a huge thank you. They will never be happy if you exceed them but will always be insultive if you don't make it in life. Friends are crap.

Well, lately, I learnt to always manage my friends and expect anything from them, including good, bad and ugly.

Thank you for reading 😊

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