7/6/25

Found my mind racing again as I try/tried to fall asleep. All my inadequacies, shortcomings, stresses, regrets, bills, tasks, future all come gushing into my brain with no real resistance. I eluded to this in another post but still it is wild thinking about how many strangers right this second need my money haha. It's also funny that I think about satisfying these strangers to such a degree. My soul aches for wanting a better life for my son, that thought is the most torturous of all. He was so sad about his hamster ugh.

But on a simpler note, I planted these flower seeds into a cheap pot I bought from the dollar store, and my son and I are are growing them in memory of our fallen pet. I don't think I had the pot in a very good area to receive great sunlight. Living in a city I just kinda feel weird leaving it outside. But today I found a better spot so, hopefully it will help the flowers grow. They're called 'carpet of snow' and seem peaceful.

Waiting on some money, Coinbase is acting up a bit for me unfortunately. We'll see hopefully by Monday it will be better but who knows. I need it to work now! Sheesh. People also owe me money. Money money money.

But yeah, life is always more stressful and always changing. AI taking over, political issues, wars... life is just strange. This is why I play chess I guess.

Maybe after a nice ramble like this I'll be able to sleep. Worth a shot. Hive on folks.