10/23/24

Nothing to see in this post just another ramble ha. Life has been really just strange man. Eerie and laughable. Exhausting and terrifying. So many random problems to juggle at once it amazes me that I'm even this alert, if you will....

I am so glad Hive exists man. I am not the ideal 'user' on Hive. I don't really comment much. Not really much content that inspires commenting here to be honest a lot of the time. I guess I can be more pro active. I don't know. I worry about saying the wrong thing too. Offending people, or something. Other reasons too. But I am pretty dang loyal man. I have been here for what, seven and a half years? Yeah.

I grew up enjoying TV, magazines, journaling, even scrapbooking a bit etc. I had summer camp, two trips abroad which involved letters or writing. I loved it all. So, I just attempt to make some money, perhaps even a living here doing those things I find enjoyable. It's pretty amazing. If I didn't have this outlet I'd be pretty cooked. More cooked than I already am.

Life is ok. My needs are met and I am grateful. It just sucks to think I am just a few mistakes or strings of bad luck away from being in a really really bad position in life.

I am tired. So dang tired.

I feel like I am stuck, but progressing painfully slowly.

I want just a decent house one day. I'll take a double wide trailer, bruh. Own it. I don't want anything freaking extravagant. I guess it would be nice, but I don't really care. I want to not worry so much. No, I don't want to worry at all. I want to provide better for my son. I would love to even take jiu-jitsu again. I want peace man.

Some days I just want to scream too, honestly.

I think it's just time for bed.